I Am Trying.

I am an American aquarium drinker
I assassin down the avenue
I'm hiding out in the big city blinking
What was I thinking when I let you stay?

Let's forget about the tongue-tied lightning
Let's part ways just like cross-eyed strangers
This is not a joke, so please stop smiling
What was I thinking when I said it was okay?

I want to glide through those brown eyes dreaming
Take it from the inside, baby hold on tight
You were so right when you said that I've been drinking
What was I thinking when I said good night?

I want to hold you in the Bible-black predawn
You're quite a quiet domino, bury me now
Take off your Band-Aid because I don't believe in touchdowns
What was I thinking when I said hello?

I'd always thought that if I held you tightly
You'd always love me like you did back then
Then I fell asleep and the city kept blinking
What was I thinking when I let you back in?

I am trying to let you go
I am trying to let you go
But still I'd be lying if I said it wasn't easy
I am trying to let you go

Disposable Dixie-cup drinking
I assassin down the avenue
I'm hiding out in the big city blinking
What was I thinking when I let go of you?

leaves you
I'm the man who leaves you