Losing.... And Why?

Ever felt like you lost? you know, just anything. It could be anything; your pride; your soul; your family; your everything. I feel like I lost a family. Weird I know, the guy with no family misses his surrogate one. Fucked up. Hate feeling like I lost. Hate feeling like I missed out. Hate not getting what is there. Yet we all must sacrifice. For what? I'm not sure. But I convince myself it's worth it.