Wednesday, April 26, 2006

trying...


so... i don't really know if i'm able to come out of this self-imposed vacation from writing that i've been in. i'm into my second forty right now, i've smoked my pipe, i've cracked and bought a pack of cigarettes. i can't really remember all of last week. where did i leave off last time? let me check the last post... ... ... ... ... ... ... .. ok, i went out the bars and got loaded on wednesday. shit i probably could have guessed and been right. then i wrote that on thursday, the 420 holiday... so what happened the rest of that day... hmmmmm..... let me check my text messages for a reference, hold on... ... ... ... ... ... ... . ok, well... that morning i was supposed to go to work with liz and be her little errand boy, but she backed out. i slept from six to noon. i woke up and wrote the last post. carmen came over. we smoked gear. all right now... then derik calls, he got kicked out of work for having a mohawk, he comes over. carmen leaves. derik and i go to buffalo exchange; i sell clothes. new found money. checks cashed. beers consumed... no, wait, bourbon and cola. this done at casey moores. we leave. rogue. we drink whiskey for a while. we leave. come to apache. jim wants to barbeque; we do it at his place. after eating, i pass out. i'm awaken around midnight. someone came by. we drink more. more people come by. we drink more. we went somewhere. we came back. we drink. we sleep.
derik and i wake up around 2 on friday. i don't remember the day. we did something. mike came by around 8pm. derik leaves. mike and i head to salty senoritas in scottsdale. packed. we meet viki and ricky. we drink. we go to grimaldi's for pizza. mike and i head to the cue club. we meet woody. i drink. we leave. i meet derik at tut's. we go to a frat party. once there, we meet casper, nancy, jenny, tuesday, and madison. we pound keg beer. casper and i try to scam money. i pound jack like i'm a hotshot. i go in the alleyway. i puke. come back in. pound more keg beer. cops come. we leave. casper and i drive drunkenly out of a police net to a circle k. i buy beer. we go to tut's. lots of the regulars there. we suggest drinking at my place. we go. my place; layla, casper, tommy, derik, nancy, mick, samir, and a couple others. music, liquor, and other refinements. later on we write all over tommy when he sleeps. such things as; cock is my friend, i love dick, penises on his cheek. he wakes up, gets mad, leaves. dawn by now. more drinks. sleep.
we wake up around 5pm saturday. bank. cash a check. margarita rocks. drink. derik and i meet viki and ricky. felicity calls me. wants me to come to tut's. to talk. i feel like hell; can't even drink. after a bit, i have derik take me to tut's. felicity and i go to my place. we talk.... well sort of. i'm sick; she comforts me. she wants me to go to this show with her. too sick. i have weed, water, and advil to get better. then a bit of a nap. felicity leaves before i wake up and feel better. i shower. return margarita rocks to meet viki and ricky. jaime gives me free shots with my beers. heads looped. go to hooters. we drink pitchers of beer. i have baked beans and fries for dinner. my ride to rogue picks me up at street level. we go to get derik on the way. rogue. drinks. drinks. and more drinks. we hang out with liz and her girlfriends. i see rikki. we dance. we drink. we drink. we return to my place. i hang with liz and panda. we drink beers on the couch together. we listen to music. panda likes bright eyes. layla comes by. we drink. she leaves at dawn. panda sleeps. mick and samir come by. i blackout now.
next thing i know, i wake up naked, to an empty apartment, around 5pm on sunday. i decide to hide all day. no drinks. no smokes. no money. derik comes by later anyway. he abuses myspace, while i watch tv. layla comes by with some random hippy from new jersey; she gives me a smoke. derik eventually leaves; i sleep.
i wake up around sixpm. i hit the computer for an hour. carmen comes by. wants to go to a bar. i shower. go to her place. we decide to hit the liquor store instead. drink at my place. hours go by. we go to her place. we smoke gear. we attempt to watch a movie. i leave. at home i fry random things. i eat them. liz comes by... she leaves. i watch movies. i sleep.
i wake up. i hit the pc. i buy a forty. layla gives me a smoke. i buy another forty. i buy a pack of smokes. i hit the pc. login to blogger. here we are.

wow. that sucked. i'd apologize if i cared. but i don't.

there is a problem here though. i can't remember enough anymore to really write about it. there was a lot of stuff that happened this week; better stuff than whats above; but i can't remember it. so what do i do? drink less? write here every night to get it accurate? or maybe i'm just bored with writing about the same shit? do something different? it's got to be one of those things. well, i'm not gon write here everynight, unless it comes to that. drinking less? i was gon do that anyway. something different? sure, why not. after next weekend i'm getting back on road. a quick tour of northern arizona before taking off to new york. that goes on until may 2oth. my head should be clearing. so by next week i should be back to normal story telling.... maybe. but by the first week of may... i promise, i'll be back in form. haha, i sound like a drug addict...

Tuesday, April 25, 2006

A Snack...


XENON.STATESIDE.OPINION.VOL.3


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tracklist:
01 - Trim - The Lowdown
02 - Statik ft.Ghetto & Demon - Never Guess
03 - Balistiq ft. JME - Final Boss
04 - Fresh ft. Allstars - Realion
05 - Wiley - Graveyard
06 - Oz - Your In Trouble
07 - OT Crew - Where Was U
08 - Lethal B - Fire
09 - Bruza & Demon - Da Rush
10 - Ghetto & Demon - K2
11 - Jammer ft. Roots Manuva - Colossal Insight
12 - Tinchy Stryder - New MCs
13 - Dev79 ft. Riko - Snapper Riddim
14 - Flo Dan - Old Skool
15 - Tinchy Stryder - No Base Freestyle
16 - Ruff Sqwad - Cuckoo
17 - Bruza - Drums Freestyle
18 - Flo Dan - Ur Killin Urself
19 - Ghetto - Simple Minded MCs
20 - Demon - Down Like That
21 - Tinchy Sryder, Slix & Shifty - I Understand It Clearly
22 - Ruff Sqwad ft. Jammer & Ghetto - No Base
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Thursday, April 20, 2006

What Is This?


Hmmm..... so it's 4.20, and I'm high; I just woke up about an hour ago, so I'm still drunk from last night. I really don't think I'll be writing a story about last week; I just don't feel like it. I mean, what happened? What happened really? Just a variation on the usual shit. Like last night for example. I went to three bars. I drank beer. I drank whiskey. We came back here. I drank more beer. I own no whiskey. Beer was spilled on me; I do nothing. Eat a burrito. Sleep. Wake up to loud TV and open door. I smoke reefer. Here I sit. You get the idea; more of the same. Or Monday; what happened then? We go to the Rogue, I drink whiskey. We go to 'The Bar', I drink more whiskey. We go to King Tuts; not sure why. Felicity shows up. We go to the Dresden Dolls show. I drink Vodka. We leave; jump fences, cross train tracks. Drink Southern Comfort. Smoke reefer. King Tut's again; gyro this time. Liquor. Sex. Reefer. Liquor. Sex. Sleep. Wow... this is really shoddy storytelling... I may as well stop here. I mean, I don't think I could continue if I wanted to. I really just don't remember. Well, maybe friday. I stayed up all night Thursday, due to heavy drinking. Hung out with Jim, Emel, Derik, Carmen; there were others, but I can't remember who. 7am, Friday; Derik and I go to Harlow's. We harrass waitresses. Then we go to ASU. We walk around the MU, watch TV, browse records, and crash a class. After that, we go to Gordon Bierch for lunch. We go to Casey Moores, then decide to head to the Rogue before even ordering a drink. At the Rogue, I drink whiskey. We play with the juke. I play pool. Everyone in the bar is hammered, including the bartender. This goes on for about four hours. Then Margarita Rocks; free buffet, cheap drinks. We drink more. I get picked up by Layla for a Pink Floyd laser light show. I stay for half the show and leave; walk through downtown Phoenix to the nearest bar. Make a call; get a ride. Come home; buy reefer. Leave home; go bar. To Zuma actually, to meet Mike, Viki, Ricky, Jim, and Emel. They're drunk, I try to catch up. We go to 'The Bar'; drink more whiskey, I disappear. Across the street at Tut's I find others; we leave and go to a small party. Here, we play beer pong; Casper and I repeatably slap each other, and mock fight. I come home. I know more happened for hours after this, but I don't remember what it was. So what's the problem here? Has it been to long to remember last week? I am I too high right now? Has alcohol destroyed my memory? Did I blackout most of the week? We can't be sure on this one. There may be too many similar variables to make a firm decision. I think I just plain ol' don't fucking feel like it. This is my vacation bitches. For those of you who actually read this shit, don't worry, I'll be back next week, well... maybe.

Wednesday, April 19, 2006

Sets and Tape


PIRATE SETS

J5 and Skepta on RinseFM - 02.04.06

J5, Jammer & Neckle Camp on RinseFM - 10.04.06

Ruff Sqwad on RinseFM - 02.04.06


Roll Deep on RinseFM - 02.04.06


Newham Generals on RinseFM - 02.04.06

Darkside on RinseFM - 15.04.06

Skream on RinseFM - 18.04.06

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XENON - STATESIDE OPINION VOL.2
folder
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tracklist:
01 - JME - Freestyle
02 - Tinchy Stryder - I'm Pro
03 - JME, Syer, Wiley & Scorcher - That's Hype
04 - Skepta Ft. Wiley - Stupid
05 - Bruza ft. Da Hooligans - Doin Me Remix
06 - Wiley - Don't Waste Bars
07 - Ruff Sqwad - Jampie
08 - Akala - Bullshit (Chase and Status Remix)
09 - Neckle Camp ft. Slew Dem - We Ain't Got Time
10 - Skepta Ft. Jammer - Swag MC Burial
11 - Doctor - Play Around
12 - Tinchy Stryder ft. Dirty Dangerous - Kabe
13 - Syer Barz - Boy With The Fire
14 - Faction G - Neck Of The Woods
15 - Ruff Sqwad - Heat
16 - Jammer - Marksman
17 - Plasticman ft. JME - Shut Up And Dance
18 - Bruza - What U Waitin 4
19 - Neckle Camp - Flow Like We
20 - El Carnicero ft. Riko - Mosquito Riddim
21 - Demon - Tools Go Bang
22 - Stutta ft. Jammer - Konk
23 - Bashy - Star
24 - Bruza - Movin & Bruzin
25 - Wiley - Friday Night

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Monday, April 17, 2006

In The City


Well it's a close one, a real close one
And no-one gets hurt, but she's got twice the fun
But now they kiss in the rain
And did someone call out someone's name
From a white cadillac on a wide wind
To her white dress across the great divide
Into the warm moonlight
And she's been reading Bukowski for days
And she leans over, spits her name in my face
And says "Well now you know how it feels"
Well now you know how it feels

And I was looking for you
Looking for you
Looking for you in the city last night

The boys in the band steal a kiss in the mystery of the night
11:59 to zero, live a blonde hair in jeans, holds her tight
Turns on the heat and starts to fight and sayin' "that's my man"
Well the myth of love must have been there
The spirit of possession was there

And the boys over at the bar
Yeah they're mixing up their medicine
The girls were on their mobile trying to get reception
Johnny's shadow's getting long but he keeps on singing
His shadow getting long but he keeps on singing:

And I was looking for you
Looking for you
Looking for you in the city last night

And people so strange
People so strange
People just keep talking in the city last night

Take off your shades and scroll down to number nine
You're living on the guest list, up against the big rack
Head back, hand highs, it's getting loud in here
Think you're going to have to shout
And she's tearing off her clothes
He's stirring all his drinks, oh yeah
Streets divide them
It's an empire of signs
Honey say she can read
And it looks like trouble
And it tastes like chocolate if you want it
It looks like trouble
And it tastes like chocolate if you want it

Still I was looking for you
Looking for you
Looking for you in the city last night

And people so strange
People so strange
People just keep talking in the city last night

Thursday, April 13, 2006

DUBSTEP


This is Dubstep; Grime's evil twin.

BROKEN STEPS


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tracklist:
01 vex'd - destruction + angels intro 01:13
02 vex'd - thunder 06:31
03 search & destroy - desperate measures 05:28
04 dj distance - replicant 05:11
05 30hz - ghost in the machine 06:34
06 plasticman - industrial graft 05:05
07 loefah - beat them 04:33
08 shackleton - i am animal 06:57
09 mark one - devil boy 04:37
10 kansas city prophets - intercom 04:33
11 warlock - silence is defeat 05:50
12 boxcutter - brood 05:43
13 dj distance - empire 05:04
14 vex'd vs search & destroy - end of line 06:20
15 vex'd - cold 03:32

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TEMPA DUBSTEP ALLSTARS VOL.2

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tracklist:
01 Skream - Untitled
02 Digital Mystikz - Ancient Memories
03 Loefah & Skream - 28 Grams
04 Loefah - Midnight
05 Skream - Request Line
06 D1 - Crack Bong (Loefah Remix)
07 Skream - I.E.
08 Loefah - Goat Stare
09 Skream - Monsoon (Loefah Remix)
10 D1 - Higher State
11 Loefah - Root
12 D1 - I Believe
13 Digital Mystikz - Neverland
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QUIET STORM - STORMING PRODUCTIONS MIX

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tracklist:
01 - magnetic pulse - the storm
02 - search & destroy - mark of the beast
03 - toasty - full clip
04 - dub child - not a game
05 - morph - sky dive
06 - mark one - get busy
07 - darqwan vs boabinga - positive vibes
08 - toasty - guesswork
09 - dub child - lfo mix
10 - bogeyman - smelly
11 - narrows - beyond contact
12 - morph - stephens wood
13 - search & destroy - wavescape
14 - n-type - square off
15 - soundproof - the question
16 - dub child - psycho path
17 - toasty - dreamweavers
18 - dub child - voo doo
19 - soundproof - beyond the milky way
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Monday, April 10, 2006

We Work On The Weekdays Too


What ever happened to weekdays? What happened to the day or two of rest? For me this week was not one of those weeks.

Monday. I woke up late, since I went to bed at six the previous night. There was some productivity here though. I cleaned my apartment, and I think I did a good job too. Hell, I even did the bi-annual cleaning of the kitchen floor. Shortly after I finished, Layla came by and we chilled for a bit. A little while after she left, Nancy came by. She wanted to apologize for the other night, for when her and Casper dragged Britney out of my bedroom. She explained it was just a misunderstanding, and that her and Casper were sorry. In the middle of her apology, Clark walks into my apartment. Now, Clark is the guy who used to date Britney and is the father of her unborn child. It seems he had been given some misinformation as well, because he was pretty pissed. He then threatened me in a fit of anger, punched a hole in my wall, and left. Very exciting. A little while after that, Layla and I got some beers, and drank them out in the hallway. Derik came by with some girl, and Layla went to bed. Derik, his new friend Dee and I spent the rest of the night drinking, smoking hookah, watching Chappelle’s Show and Go. They finally took off around six, and I slept.

Tuesday. I went to school. I called Bonnie during class to see if we were still going out on Saturday. She can’t, she says that she had promised a friend of hers that she would go to his show that night, and had forgotten about it when we made plans the previous Friday. She asks if I want to do it on Friday, I can’t, as I was planning to go to First Friday downtown. We agree on a Sunday lunch. School’s out, I come home. I had Felicity coming over that night, so I figured I’d kill some time until she came. I drank beer, I wrote last weeks post on here, Layla came by for a bit, Felicity is late, an hour and a half late, I make a cheeseburger, and she gets here. We try to hold out on the sex for a fun little game, and to see who will break first. So, we watch Twin Peaks: Fire Walk with Me. After that, we score some burritos next door. We come back, eat our food, and then drink some Port. After relaxing on the balcony with our Port for a bit, we crack on the sex game and head into the bedroom. When the sex is over, we spend the rest of the night relaxing.

Wednesday. Felicity and I wake up around ten. She made me this great little breakfast from eggs and some random things in the fridge. She had to get going early, to go and baby sit for her cousin, so she was out by eleven-thirty. An hour after that Crystal is picking me up for lunch at Ra. When I get in the car, the first thing she asks me is “Do you want a bump?” Lunch was good. Tuna and Yellowtail Sashimi, Tuna Maki, Sake, Vodka, and Cocaine. Very healthy. When I get home, Felicity comes back over with her cousin because she forgot her necklace. I pull her onto the bed and start kissing her for a minute, but she says she has to go, because her cousin is waiting downstairs, whom she insists I meet before they leave. I nap for a few hours before Carmen is knocking on my door. We hang out for about an hour, listening to music, and taking shots of Vodka. She asks me if I want to go to a Jimmy Buffet show with her in a few weeks, and if I may want to go the Vine later on that night. Then she leaves to go out to dinner with an old boyfriend who wants to talk. Not too long after she goes, I get a text message from Bonnie; “My life is upside down, I can’t do Sunday.” I respond and try to reschedule, but no response. What the fuck? Around midnight, Derik is calling me up to see if he can come by for a few beers; sure. Ten minutes later, he’s knocking on the door, but when I open it, it’s not him, it’s Carmen. When I go to close the door, Derik comes through it before I close it all the way. Carmen was drunk, and kept saying how she hurt her foot. We all started to drink the beers, Carmen and I also took some shots of Vodka. We all had a pleasant conversation for a while, but then Carmen started to verbally attack Derik. Not yelling or anything, but just kind of making fun of him. Derik held on though, and Carmen eventually stopped. Shortly after that, Carmen abruptly got up without saying anything and went home, as is sometimes her style. Right before Carmen left, Layla had called me up and asked if her, Nadine, and another two girls could come by soon and drink some beers; so we had that look forward to. In come Layla and Nadine lacking the two extra girls. What the fuck? The four of us hang out for a while, finishing the new batch of beers they brought over. Derik leaves us after a while. We hang some more, listening to some new music, and then some old music, before heading over to the Orange Store where Nadine’s husband works the graveyard shift. We chill there for a bit, I read the New Times to check the upcoming gigs, then Nadine catches a cab home, while Layla and I walk to the burrito spot to get some food. We eat back at my place and then she goes home since it was 6am by now. I throw on the Daily Show, and get about halfway into it when I hear a knock at my door. Carmen. Carmen and I start taking more shots of Vodka, smoking pot, and rolling around on the floor. This goes on for a few hours until we put American Psycho on, and pass out about twenty minutes into it. I wake up to the DVD menu and Carmen asking me if I wanted to get into the bed with her; of course.

Thursday. 1pm. Knock. Knock. KNOCK. Carmen’s waking me up; “Someone’s at the door.” Shirtless, I stagger to the door looking like hell. It’s the Safeway man with my weekly cigarette and liquor delivery. While we’re loading the booze onto the counter, and I’m signing the paperwork, Carmen slips out and goes home. I go right back to sleep, completing discarding my scholarly responsibilities for the day. I wake up around 6pm. About an hour or two after that, Felicity is calling me up. She tells me that she just got into a fight with her father and asks if it would be okay for her to come over. Naturally, I accept. About an hour later she makes her way over here, she comes in upset, and I attempt to console her. Then I go out to the store to buy some Pepsi, so I can make her one of her favorite drinks; So-Co and cola. We have a few drinks, and then Derik calls me up. He says, “It’s mohawk time Bobby… I’ll be right over.” When he gets here, he wants me to give him a mohawk with my clippers; since I was a little drunk, I asked Felicity to do it. So they did that in the bathroom while I checked on them every few minutes, haphazardly tacked some random pictures on my kitchen wall, and ripped the oven hood off the wall. When they were done, we all walked over to Tut’s so Derik could show everyone there his new haircut. After sitting there for a bit, Felicity and I walked back to my place while Derik gave someone a ride home. Derik rushes back to my place so we can get to the Rogue before closing, now Felicity is nineteen, which presented a problem, but we were going for it anyway. When we pull in, we notice that someone is working the door, so Felicity opts to stay in the car while we have a few drinks, because it seemed pointless to try. After being in there a few minutes, two girls start to talk to me and Derik, also offering me a shot of Jager. Right after that, we notice Felicity right behind us. She saw that the doorman walked away for a minute, so she took her chance, and came in. I bought her a drink, and then the two girls asked Derik and I to dance. I didn’t want to, but he wouldn’t go if I didn’t, so I went out there with them for about thirty seconds, and left them. After another drink, we left. Back at my place, I think we watched some movies. Felicity and I were in and out of the bedroom a few times. We talked of going to Harlow’s when it opened, but that was two hours away. We figured we’d just sleep for a bit and go around noon. Felicity and I stayed in the bedroom, while Derik watched a movie. Sleep.

Friday. 11am. Knock! Knock! Knock! “Bobby!” Knock! Knock! Knock! “Bobby!” I quickly throw on some clothes and head to the door, while Felicity and Derik are questioning what the fuck is going on. It was Emel. And, I hadn’t seen her in quite some time. She was just stopping by to say hi, and to see how I was doing. I asked her if she wanted to come to the bar with us later, she said she couldn’t, but maybe next week. It was good timing anyway, because it was about that time to go to Harlow’s. We have breakfast; Derik and I, Felicity has nothing. Then we spend the next three hours going to several thrift stores. Derik wanted to put together an outfit for the club he was going to later, while Felicity and I just looked around. We all come back to my place and watch some TV for a bit. Derik takes Felicity home, and I cross the street to meet some friends at the bar. At first, it’s just Jim and I, then Viki and Ricky come in, and finally Craig shows up. During our time there, we have several drinks. A couple of hours pass, and with my wallet nearing emptiness, I suggest we all head over to my place for some already paid for drinks. On the way in, I text Carmen to see when she wants to go to First Friday. Viki and Ricky only stay a short while, and drive back down to Chandler. After having a few more drinks with Craig and Jim, Carmen responds to my text, saying she wants to go. I walk over to her place to find that she still needs to shower and dress, and that by that time, First Friday would be over. We decide to meet back at her place in an hour and meet the people we were meeting anyway at some gay bar downtown. I come back to my place, Craig says he’s down to go, but he wants to go home first; but he would never show up. Jim goes home. Derik stops in on his way to Tut’s to use some hair gel, and to see if want to smoke with him. I couldn’t, because the time had come to go back to Carmen’s. I return to her place on time, and surprisingly find her ready. We needed to kill some time, so we came back to my place, had a drink, and I made her a Cody Chesnutt CD. By the time we leave, I am officially drunk, and I would only get much more drunk before the night was over. When we get to this gay bar called The Rock, we find a chill scene. We both order Red Bull / Vodkas from our friendly bartender, who was wearing low-rise jeans, with his ass sticking out, and who had decided his nickname for me would be ‘Sexy Bobby’. We drink, we drink some more, then her two friends show up. We drink more, we head into the back, and we all talk for a while. For some reason Carmen and I got into an argument, and I don’t know why. It was here where it was evident that several mini blackouts happened. Things I remember: Returning to the front. Being in the bathroom. Drinking a White Russian. Talking to Carmen; about what, I don’t know. Punching out the mirror in the bathroom. Drinking a Vodka tonic. The bartender hitting on me. Blood pouring from my hand on the bar-room floor. Freeway lights. Jasmine yelling at me in the car. Talking to Faras at the Orange Store. Blood on my pants. My bloody scarred knuckles; hopefully just from the mirror. It was at the Orange Store where things came back into focus. I walked from there to Tut’s. Inside I briefly talk with Derik, and then leave to meet Layla and Jim back at my place. Things go back out of focus. More things I remember: Jim popping in my place, wearing colorful boxers and sporting a huge grin. Derik wandering around my place. Having words with Samir out in hallway about an issue. Knocking on Carmen’s door. Drinking a beer. Layla playing the drums on my back. Things come back into focus again. Derik is out on the couch watching movies. Layla and I are on the bed, playing guitar. Then we lay around for a while, before she goes to sleep. Then Derik and I sleep.

Saturday. We sleep late. Around three-thirty is when we wake up, and I discover both of my knees are banged up. Derik suggests food at Taco Del Mar, but by the time we shower and get dressed, it was near five. So, we decided to eat free at Margarita Rocks. We get out to Mill a little early, so we walked over to the Cue Club; I call Viki and Ricky on the way, and tell them to meet us at Rocks. Quick beer at Cue Club, quick beer at PA Connection, then Margarita Rocks. It was the first time in a while that we had caught Jaime working the bar, which was good, as she is one of my favorite bartenders. We all load up on the free buffet, and start drinking. We all have a pleasant conversation with Jaime for a couple hours, and then Viki and Ricky leave. Derik and I stay for another half an hour before we have to leave, since we were going to the Rogue. On the way to my place, we stop at Tut’s for some quick hookah smoke. I leave early to change, then Derik comes by to change, and we just make the northbound bus. However, the fucking bus stops running in Tempe, so we have to walk out to Mill and get a cab. We get to the Rogue about a quarter after ten, and start drinking heavily. About an hour in, the DJ who just finished his set, sits next to me and we strike up a conversation. He eventually ends up telling me that he has a band, and he thinks I’d make a good lead singer, and then he asks me if I want to do some Coke in the bathroom. Here is where Derik and I split up for a while. I do some blow in the bathroom, and he heads to the stage to dance with some girl for a couple of hours. I end up hanging out with my new buddy in a booth, with him, and some of his friends for a while, then I get more to drink, then I realize I need food. I go next door, and chomp on a convenient store cheeseburger. I come back in, and go on stage to talk to Derik. I find some random girl and we dance around for a while. Derik’s girl wasn’t going to leave with him, so we decided it was time to go. On the way out, I see my new DJ friend and we make plans for later in the week to jam, and see if I’d work as their lead singer. We hail down a cab, and make it back to my place. On the way in, we run into Nadine and Layla; we all go up to my place and drink for a while. Then we go next door to Tut’s to smoke some hookah. Derik passes out there, and later gets up to puke out back. Seth and Tommy come in, we smoke more. Layla and I get up to let Derik back into my place, and invite everyone over on the way out. Her and I drink on the stairs for a while, before going to the burrito joint to meet Seth and Tommy. We all go back to my place, and take candid photos of a passed out Derik before posting them on his Myspace page. Seth leaves. Tommy, Layla, and I go up to her place and play drums and guitar until the sun comes up.

Friday, April 07, 2006

Ramble...


Notoriously wretched visions tinted with sparkled motion
Penetrating the gasoline soaked asphalt of ambient delirium
Condescending the McAddict nation of soldiers
Blacked out cinemas of hopeless abandon suffocating on popcorn
Dragging cats through eternal fields of corrosive nature
A society built on bullshit that you need wings to stay above
Cutting down rapturous visions of denial guilt and suffering
Cutting through death and dishonor
I feel the envy of our bloody past, but fuck it all
With all the drawl and death of the envisioned followers of the assimilated masses of fucking hell
Belief in the all in one being of the fucking glory of death
Why not feel the wrath of the angel of death in the home of Aramaic
Into the house of Jude where Hitler stomped upon the remains of Attila and felt his way
Wanted Alexander’s empire
Followed the path of Caesar but killed himself
Instead of his cronies
But why did he make this decision for himself
I can’t even cope with this natural society because it’s not natural
It is scripted by the power elite, and the public buys it
Television, newspapers, magazines, movies
They own it all
Five people and they control you
But you think it’s diverse
You think it’s real
But it’s preprogrammed brainwashing bullshit
You’re all fucking robots, wake up!
Remember the Indians
The tribes
The real
Shamans
Enlightenment
Buddha
Meditation
Transcendence
Ephemeral being of self
Tripping on mushrooms in the desert for forty days and forty nights
Climbing the hills of Oaxaca while breathing in the divine sage of life
Entering altered states of mind
Drinking ancient hallucinogenic broths of the ancient healer
Regressing into a Neanderthal
Is it possible?
Do we really possess cumulative knowledge from a billion years ago?
Do we reincarnate; it is real
Really water bathtubs
Sense deprivation chamber of holy visions in Boston and NYC;
This thought; all this shit; I can’t believe it
It’s fucking amazing
Why can’t we be atheists?
I’m agnostic; that’s where it’s at
Organized religion is bullshit
No Jesus
No Mohammed
No Moses
It’s what we call stories
Translated one thousand times convoluted stories

Notes From The Underground...


Go home. Shit. Shower. Shave. Sleep. Wake up. As they say there is no rest for the wicked. As if that three-day ordeal I just returned from in New York wasn’t enough, I only got to enjoy a three-hour nap only so I could go to court in New Jersey. I was trying to present myself as a respectable young man so I buttoned up my starched laundry white shirt. I accompanied it with my pair of pleated khaki pant, capped it all off with my dark brown leather dress shoes. Now I was ready for my second court appearance within the past twelve hours, but first things first, straight downstairs to brew up a pot of hot, black, delicious coffee. Sucked down cup after cup just to try to be somewhat alert for this second round of bullshit. Step out into the sunlight and it blinds me, it was definitely one of those mornings where you want to crawl into a cocoon mass of blankets and forget the rest of the day. No choice though, when the state calls, you answer. Slink into the passenger seat of the new SUV, roll into the back where the soft tan leather couch in the rear caresses my weary bones. It has that new leather smell that just hits your senses so subtlety. This car was new as it was a replacement car. For the same exact one we just had. In addition, the reason we were going to court was due to the destruction of the car this new one replaced.

who are you?


now is now. what is what? who are you? who am i? weekdays cease to exist. they all blend together. where are we? my relaxation is cut. 24 hour party people. friday is now. we're into it. fuck it.

Tuesday, April 04, 2006

Weekends; Days and Nights


The business of another Thursday had ended. A test for Calculus was the final task for the week. I had... or at least tried to study all day for it. However, Carmen stopped by my place around 2pm. We talked about how I might go to Vegas with her on Saturday and the usual talk as well. Then, as we usually do, we drank. I probably shouldn’t have because of the impending exam, but it was only four shots of Sake; no big deal. After a while, she left so I could get back to my studies. I had a couple cups of Yerba Mate to counteract the Sake, studied more, and hyped myself up to kick this test’s ass. When I get down to the testing center I discover that half of the test deals with the topic I had studied the least. So, I’m fairly confident my grade will fall between fifty to seventy percent correct. After that bullshit, I rode back to my place to have a much-wanted cocktail. Which I did, and then another, and then another, and then another… and then… you get the idea. Around 8pm, I walked over to Tuts and hung out with Jess, Mick, and Nancy for a bit. Then I came back to my place to have more drinks with Layla, Mick, and Jess. Mick and I snorted some Vicodin, and then Jess showed us the picture of a girl who was at Tuts at the time. She wanted to hook Mick up with her, so we went back over to check her out. We walk into Tuts to find much more people than before, and Derik had shown up as well. We sat there for a while smoking shisha, and rating the girl Jess wanted to show us. Mick and I had decided that it was time to go to the store to get more beer, a bottle of vodka, and a bottle of whiskey; inviting Derik, Samir, and whoever else over on the way out. On the way up to my place we told Jim to come on up and drink with us. Fast forward an hour or two, and we have Mick, Jim, Samir, Jess, Layla, Derik, and me getting very drunk. Shots of whiskey, quickly drank beers, music, religious discussions, and bullshitting. At some point during this, Benny called me up and said we should go on a tour of Southeast Asia in September. I told him this was funny, because Craig and I had already made plans to do this at the same exact time; so now Benny was in. Later on in the night Jim had left, Derik was passed out on the couch, and Samir was sending Jess upstairs. It was time for a change of pace. It was time for Mick, Samir, and myself to head out to East Phoenix. Why head into the wasteland at such a late hour? Why else? Drugs. We cruise through, check out a couple of spots; nothing. Samir decides to go to the spot where he and I went a week ago. It may have been 5am, but they were chilling. A crew of crack heads. Homeboy from last week was in the back, another two dudes up front, and a couple of crack-whores. One of the girls had smoked so much rock that her voice sounded like one of a burly man, but she looked like a starving Ethiopian. We chilled for a bit while she casually spoke of how she doesn’t ‘sell her pussy, just rents it out’. Samir was getting a little uncomfortable, so he got some more to go, and we went back to my place. After an hour, we had finished what we got, and it was time for bed.
I wake up around 1pm to the sound of typing. I step out of my room to find Derik still at my place. So, we went to Harlow’s for breakfast/lunch. The drive there was actually somewhat funny. On the way, Derik says, “You know, I’ve never driven on the sidewalk before.” So, we did, and we got a stare of disbelief from a guy who was in the middle of washing his car. Then when we were getting ready to turn onto University Drive, some guy did this horrible u-turn, Derik felt obligated to show him how it was done. He speeds out into road in the opposite direction we were going and does a high-speed, tires squealing, massive u-turn on University during mid-day traffic. This got us more stares of disbelief from the packed outside patio of Dilly’s Deli. When we got to Harlow’s the food was excellent as usual, and Derik harassed our waitress, as usual. But she kept talking to us so much that the hostess had to keep telling her to get back to work. Before we left, we pointed out to her a table of fat business people who all had those silver cell phone earpieces on. We commented on how they looked like cyborgs, and then she told us how they come in twice a day, always order off the menu, and are hated. After we left, we cruised around for a while. Got gas, got Derik’s paycheck, and hit the bank; all while intentionally playing cheesy music, and harassing people we encountered on the road. We drove by Mill and discovered the Arts/Music Festival was going on. So we came back to my place, showered, got dressed, and went back out there. We had some time to kill before I had to meet Viki and Stephanie at Margarita Rocks for happy hour, so we checked out the arts fest scene. Which was… disappointing. So we went over to the bar early and took advantage of the free buffet; I just love free dinner. Halfway through our first drinks, Viki and Stephanie show up. I introduce them to Derik, and then I ask Viki if I can hitch a ride with her to Vegas the next day, so I could hangout with Carmen and go to the Nine Inch Nails show. Her friend Chastity was driving, and Chastity and I have a past, so Viki wasn’t sure if she would be willing to take me. Then Jack shows up, we drink more. Not Jack though, as he was driving he and I to a housewarming party way out in Glendale. We all make plans to meet up later, and then Jack and I split, grabbing Vodka and Marlboros on the way to the party. When we get there, I fix myself a drink, and head out to the patio to have a smoke. I go back in, fix myself another drink, and then ask Bonnie if she’d like to come back out on the patio with me. Now I haven’t seen Bonnie in seven weeks, we went on a few dates, and the last one ended with us making out on my couch. We go outside and engage in our usual witty banter, discuss politics and school, then I ask her if she wants to go out with me next week; she accepts, and then leaves the party. Jack and I hang for a little longer, watch Damien and Crystal play shot checkers, and then we leave. Once back in Tempe, we go into Tut’s, so I can get myself a gyro, as I was starving. First off, I see Jenny, and she calls me over. We end making plans for her to come over my place in a bit and drink some beers. Then I order my gyro, and go sit over by Derik. Jack gets up to make a phone call outside, but actually ends up leaving without saying goodbye. Layla comes in and sits by us; we talk about some party that's going on, but decide not to go to it. On my way out to get beers, Jenny tells me she is going to go to that party, oh well. Layla and I come back to my place and drink some beers. Then we go down to Jim’s, play Punch-Out, and drink more beers. Derik comes by, and he and I drink more beers at my place, while Jim and Layla play an electric guitar so loud you can hear it throughout the complex. Eventually Jim and Layla go to bed. Derik and I stay up all night finishing the beer, moving onto Sake, and watching three movies in a row. Around 8am I call up Viki to try to secure my ride to Vegas; no answer. Derik and I end up passing out until a quarter to 2pm.
When I wake up, I have two text messages. One from Carmen asking if I’m coming to Vegas, and one from Viki saying that Chastity is sick, and they’re not going; so in turn neither was I. Derik and I realize that it’s nearly two; closing time at Harlow’s, so we can’t go there. Instead, we decide to go to Chili’s of all places. At Chili’s we drink massive Blue Moons, eat large sandwiches, and of course, Derik harasses another waitress; but they all love it. From there we walk down to Buffalo Exchange to see what they got; we buy nothing. We walk through the arts festival—which was better then the previous day—on the way to Zuma. There we have a couple of quick drinks, and see the old alcoholic we sat next to the day before at Margarita Rocks. We leave, on the way out some guy tries to get us to sign up for some singles night; fuck that. Then I get the idea to head over to Casey Moore’s for a cool Guinness. We enjoy our drafts and decide to go back to my place to see how Jim was coming along with working on his seventies Landcruiser. On the way back to my place two girls who know Derik spot us on the road, we tell them to follow us to my place. We pull up into my parking lot, and Jim is not working on his truck. The two girls—Tristessa and Britney—follow us in, and Mick and Nancy pull in about a minute after them. After some quick talk, we decide to head down to Safeway for beer and Vodka. We get back, and start mixing up drinks. After a few hours of depleting bottles of vodka, getting acquainted, and listening to music, most of the group heads over to Tut’s for some shisha. Mick and I hang back, and I tell them I’ll join them shortly. While finishing my drink, Mick and I discuss relationships, and I get a phone call from an old flame; we make plans to hangout in May when I return to New York. Nancy comes by; I leave her and Mick at my place while I go over to Tut’s. When I get there, Derik has left to go to a rave. After some hookah smoke, I bring Cory, his friend, Tristessa, Britney, and Layla back over to my place. We drink more; Tristessa and I, Britney did not drink all day, and wouldn’t all night, but Layla would later. After fucking around with Myspace and listening to some music, the three girls and I decide to head out to Mill. When we get out there, arts fest is over, which presents a dilemma, because all of these girls were under twenty-one. Jack calls me and says he’s in the Cue Club with Woody. I tell the girls to wait outside while I grab them. Once we’re all outside, we figure out that we can get into Ra because it’s busy and they don’t check I.D. at the door. At Ra, we all hit the bathrooms first before making our way to the outside bar. It’s packed and I squeeze my way into a small spot to get Sake bombs for everyone. The guys whose spot it was comes back and tries to start some shit with me; I stay there, telling him I’m just getting a quick drink. He continues to be a prick, and I was pretty drunk by now. Then Jack starts talking some shit to him, at this point I was consumed by an anger I had not know for the past six years. One more word out of him would have prompted me to turn around, grab him by the throat, and repeatably beat his head into the wall until I was stopped. Luckily, the guy just walked away with his girl. By the time our fifty dollars worth of Sake bombs had arrived, I calmed down. All of us but Britney tore through them quickly and shortly after left. I was very drunk by now, and things were hazy; we had lost Jack and Woody in the shuffle. The three girls and I, along with some new guy I think Tristessa picked up at the bar went back to Tristessa’s car. When she was pulling out, she fucked up the fender of her car on a pillar in the garage, which prompted the guy to drive, and her to cry. When we got back to my place, Mick was hanging around and we drank more. Tristessa was still very upset, so I consoled her, tried to put things in perspective and make her feel better. Shortly after, Tristessa left with the guy, Layla went somewhere else, and it was just Mick, Britney and I left. Now, for the past few hours Britney was making it very clear that she wanted to do something with me, and in my very drunken state, who was I to let her down. We were messing around on the floor in the main room with Mick sitting on the couch, so she got up and went into the bedroom; I followed, closing the door behind me. Once in bed we started making out right away. This went on for a bit, and then out of the blue Nancy and Casper burst into my room and dragged her out. It happened so fast, that in my ridiculously drunken state this was all very confusing to me. I walk out, look at Mick, and ask, “What the fuck just happened?” He didn’t know, so after talking about it for a bit, we went over to Tut’s. While I waited for my food, Jenny called me over and asked if I wanted to hang out with her the next night and get drunk. Sure… Why not? She told me to meet her at Tut’s the next night at 9.30; I never went. We came back, I ate, time passed. Later I went back to Tut’s with Layla, and we hung out with Derik until closing. After Tut’s, Derik and I went over to some girl’s house and hung out with her and her friend until the sun came up. By then, he went back to her dorm; I came home, fucked around on the computer for a bit, and slept.
Sunday. What? Derik came by to return my shirt, and we watched a couple movies. Then we went upstairs, talked to Layla, harassed people with a laser pointer, and he left. Layla came downstairs and we watched a movie. 6am; we went to sleep.

Saturday, April 01, 2006

GRIME Bitches...



Dizzee Rascal and DJ Slimzee - Exclusive Studio Garage Mix
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no tracklist... but hey this is Dizzee motherfucking Rascal with Slimzee from almost four years ago... recognize bitches.

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Pay As U Go - Slu Dem Sunday
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ok... Pay As U Go... this shit is old... its the origin... well, if you don't count those So Solid bitches, just D/L it and shut the fuck up...

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tracklist:
01 Intro
02 TNT
03 Unknown
04 Terrible Instrumental
05 Maxwell D Unknown
06 TNT - Transmission
07 ---
08 Old Skool
09 Killahertz
10 Pulse X
11 Know We
12 Oi Simzee Mix
13 Agent X
14 ---
15 Champagne Dance
16 Geeneus
17 Wiley

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Dizzee Rascal and Newham Generals Pirate Radio Session

Dizzee on Rinse FM for the first time in a while with labelmates Newham Generals in late January 2006...
no tracklist bitches, this is a pirate session

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DJ Lioness - 03.26.06 radio set


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tracklist:
Jiggalo - Lioness The Greatest
Marcie Phonix - If Its Meant To Be
Sadie Ama - Take Me Away
Purple & Ny - No Need To Smile
Renegade Boys - Big Steps
South Agents - Ah Lie
Jon E Cash - Do It
Ghetto - Back In A Big Way
J Mixer - This Is How We Do It Remix
DCoy - Roadrunner
Blay-Z - Barbarian Freestyle
JME - 96 Bars of Revenge
Lewi White - Shangooli Remix
Spyro - 60 Pence
Silkie - Jason
Andy Havok - Untitled
Dubversive - Lioness Dub
Quest - Mirage
Quest - Hard Food
Mark One - Brimble
DCoy - Barbarian VIP
Y Dot - Beatbox
Ne-Yo - So Sick
Nio - So Shit
Ms Dynamite, Wariko & Selah - Gotta Make It Through
NASTY & Ms Dynamite - Dangerous
Flirta D - Step In The Club
Waitz - Payback
Silkie - Water
Swiftee - 8th Dimension
Delerious - Baretta
Stormar - Me, Myself, My Life
Swiftee - Dojo
Stormin - Dojo Freestyle
Scorcher - Not No Talker
Spyro - Total Monster
Silkie - Ex Girlfriend
Scandalous Unlimited - My Life VIP
Jiggalo Feat Louie Lou - Leaving You
Stormar - So Amazing Freestyle
Mackie - Pengology
Devlin - Freestyle
Devlin - Do One
Wretch 32 - Yeah
snipe Keedo - Crunk Freestyle
Narstie & Solo - Spun A Web
The Streets Feat Doctor & Bearman - When You Wasnt Famous